With whats happened to daddy recently, we've been living independently. So the most random people I know have decided to try to help us out and give us money and food and etc.
Honestly I don't really need help. It makes me mad how people dont trust us enough to take care of ourselves. I appreciate the sympathy and all but its getting to the point where I start getting frustrated. Im kinda working so I can make money for gas, food, student fees, yearbook, cap & gown, guinea pig food, and any other stuff I need. My aunt, uncle, and grandparents have been giving us real support. Most of the other people have never given a rats ass about us before...so why start now? Just cus we don't have parents at the moment doesn't mean we're weak. It makes me learn more. I'm wiser with each passing day.
So my distant family/family friends can feel sorry for me all they want. Im actually gonna feel sorry for them. I KNOW I'm gonna be something great. Meanwhile, they're just gonna do labor work for the rest of their lives. I sound cruel right now but I cant help feeling that way. They took the easy way out. Especially the younger family members who had a chance to go to college and be something greater. Instead they're doing nails. Sure I can handle it as a part time job but if you think I'm gonna be like them for the rest of my life, you're dead wrong. My parents have worked too damn hard for me. I won't end up as dead weight.
There hasn't been a situation where I completely broke down and gave up. Cus when I give up, it's all over. I swear I will prove everyone wrong. I am Vivian. I define myself. Sure I can be lazy at times but when I need to step up to the plate, you bet I'm gonna give 100%. I'm going to impact people somehow.
This I swear. Consider this a turning point for me.
